I just need a break

I've officially decided I'm depressed. I'm just have way too much stress in my life right, it really feels like I can't take it anymore. I have cavities and they are getting worse everyday but not only does my job not offer dental insurance but I can't afford it on my own. I applied for this care credit thing but since I have no one who can co-sign for me and a stuff ton of hospital bills on my credit, I was denied. I knew this would happen but I guess for some reason I still let myself get some little glimmer of hope that maybe, just maybe, I'd finally catch a break in life. Who the hell was I kidding. Me? Catch a break? HA! You'd think all that I've been going through with the house would have taught me that I can't catch a break but I guess all my daydreaming foolishness has just led me to believe I would eventually catch a break in life. I mean my life has never had a break. I started out in horrid poverty with alot of abuse and I thought finally at 6 when I was adopted I'd catch a break. Wrong. I love my family and couldnt be any happier with them so dont get the impression that I dislike my family by any means. It's just that they are EXTREMELY dysfunctional. My adopted parents were seperated very shortly after I came into the picture. But I persevered and dealt and moved on. My teen years would probably take longer to explain than it did to live them so I dont even want to go there. When I finally got out on my own I couldnt afford health insurance so when I got sick it just developed until I was so sick I ended up in the hospital, which has now ruined my credit and f**ked me once again. I finally got new glasses for the first time in years (literally like 6 years) a couple months ago. I had been wearing glasses that the prescription was in the low 500's, now it's in the mid to high 700's. No wonder I had been having migraines all the time. After that I finally got health insurance (on my own as well, not offered by my job either) but I cannot afford dental insurance on my own..I've had a really hard time even finding places that offered it not through your employer. My teeth hurt. They don't look bad but I can feel the cavities and they hurt from a problem with grinding and clenching that I have had since I was a child. But I cant afford to get them fixed. And b/c I'm a responsible person who has a job and tries to take care of herself I can't get help from the goverment bc apparently in kentucky thats only for illegal aliens and people who dont want to make something of themselves and would rather be burdens on society sucking the goverments teet until it runs dry. I don't even want to go there about trying to plan a wedding. I'm so overwhelmed it literally hurts to breathe. It hurts to get out of bed in the morning. I have no appetite, no energy, no self esteem. Nothing. I feel like I am nothing. I'm sitting at work just crying to myself, tears streaming but without the energy to even sob and wail like I feel like doing on the inside. I'm not suicidal by any means. I've been there, done that and got another multi-thousand dollar hospital bill to show for it. I look back and think I didn't even know depression then. What I feel now is beyond depression, its more like desperation. I don't have any urge to die so please no one message me jumping my stuff about that. I just need a break. I'd see a therapist but guess what? I cant f**king afford that either. And I definatley can't afford to just take off work and let myself catch up to me. I really just need some form of a break. I'm sick of being tired and in pain all the time.